What are you doing up all night?

veterinary technician at an animal emergency hospital.

Sounds like a cool job

I've got three.

2 years of working in a day practice. and im currently in college to get my license. Then i plan to start real college (english, math ect) Most ppl i work with have 10 plus years xp. I kinda got in because im currently in college and become very kool with one of the Dr's at my first job.

yeah sucks dude, i'm a bit of an insomniac myself sometimes.

thanks dude, you paintin tonight?

Hey thanks a lot, I've really been tryin to get ripped. I think somehow the shadows made me look better than I do.. but I won't complain Man I've been so "ab"sessed lately, I really think I am enclosing on my bf goals though. Not sure what it is either but seems last couple weeks I've just been looking a lil more cut everyday.

Hah suppose you are right... you know about shadows and all that so I'll take your word for it Your painting is just so amazing by the way.. it's quite the talen you got there. Plus you're looking pretty well sculpted yourself Ya know I think BN needs a chatrooom for these late night sessions.. that'd be kinda interesting. Doubt that would happen.. and might turn into something ugly at times. Alternatively I suppose we could all sign on to the msn messenger or something.

wake up the ninjas are comming

OH SH*T!! I think I see them. It looks like they came with the shadow people.

lol, not too bad, i could use the sleep. i have been dragging ass lately, dont have to work tomorrow so its gonna be a nice sleep, then gym whenever i feel like it. stress free.

what are you doing up so late

i see how it is, i dont get a good nite

thanks trouble


well im about to hit it too

Deep Dish - George Is On

It's their new album. It's not a mix cd, it's actual prodcution work. Hittin the bricks now tho. I wanna workout twice tomorrow, go to the library, and lay on the beach.

TTYL, dooooood

Thanks man, yeah she is great, I do have a good feeling about this one so I hope she sticks around as well. Anything new with you man? By the way your painting is looking wicked

Thanks.

Nothing new with me... in fact I am begining to wonder just what the hell am I doing waisting my short time on this earth stuck in this rat race.

Questioning EVERYTHING......

Heh, I do that too man, quite often in fact. Sometimes you don't want to question life too much though... somehow it just can make things worse. I personally know that I've been wasting much time.. gotta get my ass in gear and do something.. something meaningful and useful I hope, get some kinda job where I can make a difference ya know. I'm not a big fan of living life for myself.. so maybe if I was doing it for others I'd be happier. Yeah.. time to start doin something. Maybe you need a change too dude.

Yes, I want to do something worthwhile...important... something that makes a difference in peoples lives.

This biz I started just is not it. I mean I do the best I can...take pride in my work and all that. The end product is a good thing-makes people happy but i am missing something MAJOR in my life. Something I need to do.
I am sure of it.

Yes I hear ya man, something major is missing in my life too and it's when that realization hits you that you start questioning everything and the worth of everything you do. You have to find something you can get more satisfaction out of, I know I do. I really think I'd be happier if I could find something I can do directly to help others. Actually I plan on volunteering at a clinic by my place, work the crisis lines and such. If it works out then I think I may go back to school and become a councellor.. too many people out there that need a lil help. Have to do something meaningful to give your life meaning I guess eh, well hopefully it all works out and I can at least make a small difference. Anyway, I think Im ready for bed now.. gnight and take care.

Trouble, its nuggets like this.... that make sifting through your ramblings- worth it

btw.. just what is that suppose to mean?? hehe

Sounds good man. I've done a lot of changing myself over the last year. I used to drink fairly heavily, probobly was bordering on alcoholism and getting myself in a bit of trouble as well. Never was jailed but I have had the cops haul my ass off into the drunk tank. I also smoked like a bastard, did my fair share of drugs and ate like shit. I rarely drink now, am cutting out the smoking and eat for the most part extremely healthy, I just wanted to get myself out of that trap and my life is much better for it. But, I also have gotten to a point where I realize I have to do something with my life and it has to be something with meaning. I actually haven't had a job for over 5 years now.. I've been living off insurance from my car accident I had in 2000. Granted those last 5 years haven't been a total waste, I was in school for most of that time... but in the end I got tired of it and didn't know what I was doing anymore. In that time I have also had a few surgeries, learned how to walk again and basically rehabilitated myself so that I am finally able to function as a productive member of society. My life has improved by leaps and bounds but I now have to concentrate on getting my ass back into the world. My insurance runs out in february so I have to have some form of employment before then. Unfortunetly the only degree I completed was in history, and there are not many options there. For awhile I was in computer sciences but realized it jus twasn't for me, sure I oculd have gotten a well paying job but that is really meaningless to me.. I just wouldn't have felt like I was actually doing something worthwhile for myself or those around me. Like I said I have recently begun to think about councelling because I have been through much adversity myself and pulled through and feel I have something to offer, as well my family and friends feel I have a good connection with people and am always good at helping them through their problems and it always makes me feel better when I can directly help someone else. Many feel as if I have a gift and I feel that I should put it to use and try to make a difference if I can, in particualr I would like to work with young people as I feel especially in this day and age they really are in need of guidence and support. So, my plan is to volunteer at a crisis centre where they will also give mr some training, perhaps I will enjoy it and also get a feel for the field, if so then I will possibly persue it as a career. In the meantime I will still have to find some form of employment though.. very likely somewhere I will not really want to work but it will only be to help provide a means to something better. So, I will see how all this plays out but I do feel I am on a better path. I hope you yourself can find something to bring you more purpose and happiness. Definately your art is a true gift and you may be able to find some way of using that in a meaningful way to have an impact on others. In truth perhpas you are also not so bad of a role model as you may think.. yeah you may have dome some of the wrong things and ended up in trouble for it but many of us have.. and your desire to change things means a lot. Often it is those of us who have made the most mistakes that can be the greatest teachers because we know what it's like to be down and crawl back up.. and come out stronger because of it. You probobly have a many strengths and a lot to offer, you already have the desire to reach out and make a difference and perhaps that's all you really need. There's a whole world out there that could use a hand in many different ways, don't tell yourself that yours isn't good enough. Lets get out there and see what we can do Bro.

Thanks big dog.

Big SECOND on that one. WTF!?! i didnt know people actually listened to her. I thought they just put her on TV just to have a crazy nazi lady to help put things into perspective.... you know like "Hey we may be a little right wing bias but LOOK HOW BAD WE COULD BE!"

It's because she's so scathing you can't help but laugh most of the time. I don't follow her like a religion, but I like to read most of her stuff.

BTW - I've yet to FINISH a political book. About 1/3 of the way through I'm always like "OK, I get it" and have no desire to read anymore.

CS: Source or old school?

I've been putting in a lot of time with BF2 demo....

Upgrade, dood. You can get a 9800 Pro for like $220. That's killer cheap

I'm on an AMD64 with 1gig RAM and that ATI card....still can only go 800x600 in medium on BF2.

Desert Combat - Maxed out on 1600x1400

Luckily my work gave me a laptop so I have my own home machine in addition. That one's for gamin

Yeah my work gave me a laptop late last year as well. So I have been itching to build a desktop for awhile. Almost went to the AMD Tour last month cause they had 64 bit (3000+/3300+) Venice dual cores, a motherboard, and a full license of Windows 64 bit for $250. Not a great deal as far as hardware, but that OEM copy of Win64 makes it a sweet deal.

They had an Dual Opteron system as well, but the mb required registered memory ($$$) but if had some memory laying around, it was $500 for that package. I'll probably wait till the fall, hopefully they will dump the 4000+ on us then

Thats the one game that comes to mind...they had a write-up about it on Toms Hardware.

They added more leaves, grass, and bugs. OH - and some barrels on one of the levels.

OoOoOOoOoO!!! The anticipation!!

Not really. She's pretty good with computers but the most she does on mine is message boards, myspace, and AIM.

If I had photoshop she'd play with that. She does a lot of it at home.

Lightweight....

dont know anyone who has one, but i have heard they are awesome

im up at 10 after 2, just got back from the same party i have been at the last 3 nights. my buddy's parents are out of town, so everyone has been kickin it there. it get pretty lame watching people play flip cup for 3 hours every night (i havent been drinking), but i suck it up and hang out with everyone....anyone else here

No action at the party??

Yes.....

This ones almost too easy. I may have to let somebody else get a good rip in on this comment.



Its called prostitution

Well, at least we know now that your IQ is identical to your age.

Thanks for killing the humor.

You can go back to Hershey Lane with Vanity now.

You obviously have no sense of humor and if you were around enough you would know that although he and I would probably be friends in real life, Vanity and I are polar opposites.

I give everybody on here a hard time in good fun, not to be an ass or get people riled up.

I got the humor in your post and I laughed. You need to learn how to take some friendly razzing, jeez. Which is why I used the: - the universal internet sign for ball busting.

Hehe.. sounds like a blast. I will be checking this thread all night.

You can give me progress reports...

I bet you eat a lot of pizza!

actually, i dont eat much pizza at all

i am not trying to cut yet, but pizza just isnt my thing.......i'd rather just have like a bread stick and marinara sauce, or basically pizza without cheese......kinda weird, but oh well. i have only worked there a month, and only have a month til i go back to school, so far i havent eaten a single slice of "regular pizza". last night i had 2 small pieces of thin crust with no cheese....so probably like 75 calories or something, no big deal

i have hypothyroidism so i have to be really careful what i eat, especially at night before going to sleep

Go on...

Trouble! do you know what time it is?? Tick tock.

How long at the new job?

Surprised you remembered man. Didn't go so hot.. couldn't even tell you what happened, she just kinda backed off all of a sudden.. I think she just got kinda scared off by the prospect of a relationship, she's a very goal oriented person, doesn't want anything to interfere with that. Doesn't matter, I met a new girl this one is blonde. She's absolutely great, we've been having a great time. She's pretty, smart and has a great sense of humour.. best of all she laughs at all my terrible jokes I got a good feeling about this one Just glad we decided to take a night off last night... she would've had to sit on the balcony all night.. even then she may not have been safe from the wrath of the curry Yeah Trouble I hear ya about the food thing I just love to go out and eat all different kinds of food. I am a lucky bastard and have a wicked Thai restaurant right beside my apartment building